The Tuanzi family: I saw the rabbit the day before yesterday, the deer yesterday, and you today

Perhaps the most sad scene in Clannad is Fujiabayashi crying to Tomoya in the rain, I like you, so please don’t be so nice to me, I am very silly, you are good to me I will misunderstand.

After Nagisa’s death, Tomoya once again felt his old hopeless, meaningless world. He had been having nightmares about a world where there was nothing but his subconscious mind, not even his body. Once upon a time it was just a dream, but after Nagisa’s death, that dream became a reality, a reality that cannot be awakened or escaped. Yoshi no told Tomoya that many, many people were worried that he might go down again.

Then I remembered Michael Clayton where Geogre said to his son that he believed he would succeed in the future because he was stronger than his uncle, and he had always known that his son was strong inside. Being mentally strong may indeed be a powerful aid to success, but what does Geogre mean by success? Immersed in the world of fame and fortune? Is inner vulnerability a kind of laziness of our soul or nature? Is it negative by Plato or positive by Aristotle? If it is but one of the natures of the soul, then our constant demand for inner strength is a violation of our soul

The former is infatuated with Clannad and has seen all its versions, and at last what I see there is the weak thing in every soul. If the real ending is the After story after Taken, where Tomoya lives with Nagisa’s for two years, and Nagisa’s dies in a childbearing tide, then all the bifurcation lines in Taken are actually Tamiya’s later memories of the girls he met, and the possibilities for their development, and what we can understand may be the many possibilities in reality, Tomoya probably thinks that if he had been with Fujiabayashi and Tomoya and Kombi instead of with Nagisa’s as he is today, Nagisa’s might not have died. He refuses to accept that the present way is to think about every possibility in the past, and yet what we see is that whatever path he goes down ends up being torture for everyone, because we all have fragile souls.

Tomoya and Hakuwara are the only two uneducated students in key high schools, who are absent from class all day long. They are all enrolled in the school in the name of sports students. However, Tomoya, who has only a father since childhood, hurts his right hand in a fight with his depressed father and can no longer play basketball. They have nothing left in their lives to be proud of. As Tomoya once asked Tomoya, what a man can do to stop feeling depressed. In fact, what she wants to ask is how people can survive. She thinks that vulnerability and depravity are actually human nature. What things can change people and prevent them from being abandoned? It’s like she was a bad student until she transferred. Her own answer is first of all, based on personal talent, want to be able to do something in the lifetime, to gain recognition from others, this is the most basic, but if a person is lack of talent, or talent is lost like Tomoya, then what? She replied that it depends on family members, not blood relatives, but those who can give warm feelings like family members, for their happiness or happiness can keep them from depression, like Tokyo. Tomoya believed it, he was moved when Tomoya said it, he was probably thinking about Nagisa’s, and when he found Nagisa’s, he stopped having nightmares about his lonely world, but Nagisa’s death destroyed Tamiya’s world, and he sank again and again, until finally, when he saw for the first time the daughter he hadn’t seen in five years, he realized that he could live for someone else, It seems that our fragile minds can find strength in others. That’s what Leister says for his existence, as opposed to Heidegger’s existence for himself, they both think that the basis for each other’s existence is fragile, but they both find the reason for our existence, for us, or for others.

Back in Tomoya and Hakuwara, they are the only loners. No one in high school answers them. Fujihayashi is one of the few people who deal with them. Perhaps because Apricot is the monitor and they are often late for the sake of communication, maybe at that time Apricot found Tomoya that fragile soul and his heart is the same, maybe the appearance lively heart sensitive Apricot is like Tomoya this type, in short, Apricot to Tamiya’s care is perceived by her sister Fuji in, so she more and more attention to Apricot like that person, However unknowingly do not know by friends also attracted or competitive, she explained her feelings with apricot, she finally said to friends that she knew that as long as he explained with apricot, Apricot will abandon their feelings and heart to help her, even if she knew so also want to tell apricot, finally she felt that he has been using his sister. And Apricot is also for their own departure, she said that it is better to fulfill his sister than to be refused by friends when the confession, looking at friends and his sister to communicate with the pain of being rejected by friends, she felt that she can also bear the former, because after the confession may not be friends with friends, and the former can even make her often see friends. Apricot said she has been a bad heart, on the one hand said to help sister; in fact, the heart is more than anyone else want to be rejected. Tomoya is still hesitant, he wants to let himself play a good person, so that no one is hurt, but Tenyuan said that up to now, so that no one is hurt, Tenyuan asked: with the peace and see apricot when the pain, in the end which is the feeling of love. So when Apricot said, “I like you, please stop being so nice to me,” Tamiya’s fragile soul was in extreme pain. When we really face some difficulties in life and can only make an either/or choice, whether our individual soul can bear the responsibility and pain brought by the choice, this is the difference between Sartre and Liu Xiaofeng.

Tomoya is not allowed to like Tomoya from the very beginning. A bad student and an excellent student president are the most unlikely couples. However, Tomoya continues to pay for Tomoya, which unfortunately brings more and more pressure on Tomoya. In fact, when they dated, Tomoya didn’t really like Tomoya, otherwise he would not have said goodbye to Tomoya for countless times. It was probably because the student life was boring, probably because he wanted to finish his student life better, because he knew that he could not continue studying at all. After half a year, he would have to do some manual work with sweat and sweat in the town, working every day and every day. Tomoya is different, she has a better world, a higher height waiting for her, the key high school second grade results and first-class student union president, no matter what kind of status is destined to her far more brilliant prospects than Tomoya, Tomoya will definitely leave this town after high school, to Tokyo to go to the first-class university, make first-class friends, Then either go abroad or go to the top companies in China. Now they are in the same high school, but in the future they are destined to grow apart, the longer the distance of time, the more distant, not only in space, but also in the level of difference. So Tomoya is discouraged by his teacher and his friends around him. They all know Tamiya’s determination, so they ask Tomoya to leave for what they think is Tamayo’s future. They think that they can actually decide what makes others happy and happy. They think that as long as it is for the so-called good of others, they can decide the path of others. Tomoya is not so much for Tamayo’s future as for his own fragile soul, which is afraid to take on future responsibilities. He can’t stand the cold words and pressure of others. He is afraid that Tomoya will blame him for all his mistakes when he regrets later. So he asked Tomoya to go on alone, and he stayed where he was, and when he saw Tomoya on TV or other occasions that day, he was able to say to himself that he was really good, that he had dated such a good person. When he broke up at that moment he really like Tomoya, no Tomoya world, he finally felt like there is no Nagisa’s like empty. He forgot what Tomoya said about people’s survival, talent and family. In the end, Tomoya chose her family and resigned as the president of the student union. Maybe she finally thought that the sense of success and satisfaction brought by talent was not as good as the warmth brought by her family. If this is the final ending, it will be wonderful, because in this ending, Tomoya has a little determination to pull himself together for Tomoya, and his fragile soul is warmed by Tomoya. The other ending is even more thought-provoking. When Tomoya fails to be elected student president, she seems to fall, following Tomoya, and when Tomoya graduates, she also ends her studies, and the two live together in the fall. Of course, we can say that it is because of the inner weakness of Tomoya, who cannot withstand the attack. However, for their free choice, for Tomoyo’s saying that they can live with their families, this understanding is shallow. In the end, we still return to the original question, what is the life we want, maybe we can judge whether the weakness of the soul is nature or inertia. Should we accept, understand, and try our best to feel the vulnerability in ourselves and others, or should we reject the feelings of temporary sadness and be strong enough to face the difficulties and challenges. Some people say those are successful people, others say those are one-way, those are hollow people.

The need to rely on others because of pain, which is what Leister shows us, so when Nagisa’s dies, Tomoya takes Nagisa’s place and takes care of Tomoya for five years, by his side night and day, and the bright future that Tomoya thought everyone had before doesn’t seem to come to pass, and maybe everyone is cured of Tomoya, and it’s not her that saves Tamiya’s soul, but one day, When Tomoya thinks back on the five years he spent walking, he may suddenly feel a sense of heartfelt gratitude and gratefulness. He may feel heartfelt gratitude to Tomoya for being with him during the five years when he was at his worst and most desperate, and that gratefulness, at least to me now, is more precious than the sense of success.